Post by veliathamis on Sept 4, 2007 15:07:38 GMT -5
This is a story I finished a while ago, I'll try to post it little by little... there is some editing I'm afraid I still need to do. I'm sorry it's rather choppy.
Also, it's a HP/DM as well as a SS/RL enjoy!
Chapter One: “I Can’t Keep Him.”
Severus Snape held the tiny child Harry in his arms. Harry was only a few weeks old but he was Sev’s child. Lily had owled him barely two months ago informing him that she was nearing the end of her pregnancy. Severus had not even known that she had been pregnant before the Potter wedding. Lily and Severus had been a couple and they had indeed conceived the child but Lily Evans was in love with two men. It was better for all three if she gave up Severus Snape for James Potter.
Severus stood in one of many studies in the Snape Manor. Albus Dumbeldore stood with him.
“Severus do be serious, you cannot possibly care for the child while Voldermort lives.”
“Yes Albus, I know but he is so perfect and he is mine why should he not be safe with me?”
“I don’t need to answer that. However, I will answer in one word: Malfoy.” Severus had not wanted to hear it, but it was true. Lucius was a problem. “How are you faring Severus?”
“I’m doing well… Malfoy is determined to find my breaking point so that I will join him in becoming a death-eater, so not much different but I suppose he is getting closer. He is getting more information then he should be getting, and I am getting more and more uncomfortable around him.”
“I see, well I must be off we do not want my presence detected her… please come straight to Hogwarts if you need me.”
“I will.” Severus said before Dumbeldore apperated out of Snape Manor with a loud BANG! The noise disturbed Harry who shifted his small body in Severus’s arms.
~~***~~ One Year Later ~~***~~
“ALBUS!!!” Severus screamed going straight to the headmaster’s office. The gargoyle let him without a password on Dumbeldore’s request.
“What is it Severus?” The words didn’t seem to be fully comprehended Severus was shaking and his thoughts were on one thing…
“They’re dead…. James and Lily…I feel it, it burns me… they are hurting, they have died. Harry! What about Harry!!!” Severus was about to fly out of the room when he was frozen in fright. His eyes glazed over his trembling increased and he felt tears threatening to spill down his pale cheeks. “Harry…” he whimpered falling into one of the chairs in front of Albus’s desk.
“Severus I am afraid I must leave you here for a short while… do try to remain calm…” Severus shook in fear. Albus exited the room quickly and quietly. Severus shook and could only think about his son and his former love. Lily had been everything to Severus at one point at time and he still loved her even if he was still young and foolish. Severus had known nothing about the attack on the Potter home. He was now lost… he had made a bond with each of his lovers and he knew Lily and James were both dead. But he didn’t have that bond with Harry… he didn’t have a link to the one person in his life who he was most connected to… Lily had left him, James had left him, now they were both taken away forever. Severus started weeping he hated Lucius and The Dark Lord now more then ever.
“Sev?” It was the voice of Remus Lupin his friend who was under pressure to become a death-eater from Lucius because he was a pureblood and a Werewolf.
“Remus there is pain… my son I don’t know if my son is de…” Severus cut himself off before he could finish the word.
“Sev ohh Sev…” Remus crossed the room quickly to wrap his friend in a warm embrace. “It’s okay Sev, you can cry if you need to.”
“Stay with me… I need you tonight…”
“Alright Sev… I will stay.” He said with some reluctance.
“Let’s go now… I can’t stay in here there are too many voices…” Severus was referring to the portraits who were listening to the two men… several were talking about the fact that the Dark Lord had killed again.
The two nineteen year olds left the office of their beloved headmaster. Severus and Remus apperated to Snape Manor where they shared with each other what they needed in order to feel alive in this time. After they cried together holding onto the memory of their mutual friends. In the morning Severus awoke when the manor shields flexed with the arrival of Albus and Minerva. Severus dressed quickly and headed down to great his guest. They were patiently waiting at the front door. Both covered in bright green cloaks head to toe Minerva carried a small blanked wrapped child.
“Harry?” Severus choked out to them.
“Yes Severus… he lived…however you wear right about Lily and James. I am truly sorry.” Albus replied to the young man.
“Come in, please?” Sev said to his Headmaster and Professor. Minerva handed Severus the small bundle when he asked for Harry and Severus couldn’t let go.
“How did he get this scratch?” Severus looked up at his two elders.
“I think that when he killed Lord Voldermort that he received that scar.” Albus said a twinkle in his eye.
“He’s dead? You are sure that he’s dead?”
“Yes we are quiet sure.” Minerva said.
“Severus there is one thing…” Albus said quietly. Severus looked up at him eyes filled with tears of happiness. “Severus… you are still a Death-Eater, and Harry has an Aunt in the muggle world with a small child herself. There are going to be trials now with you being a newly joined Death-Eater I think it would be best if they found you but not with Harry… there are Death-Eaters who will not be controlled by the Ministry one’s they can’t convict, like you, but if they find you with Harry one of two things could happen. One: They will think you kidnapped him to prove your post-defeat loyalty to Voldermort. Or two: You will have to come out as Harry’s father and be shunned by the Death-Eaters as a traitor for not submitting Harry to the Dark Lord to be trained as a future servant or Voldermort and thus endangering Harry’s life in the process. I would suggest that you find Lucius and make plans for the revival of Voldermort because he will be back and we need you now more than ever as a spy.” Severus had a complete mood change when he heard this… how could this be how could the Dark Lord be gone but coming back…
“What’s going on in here?” Remus was awake finally.
“Ahh Mr. Lupin we have retrieved Harry… he is very much alive and healthy. Minerva and I have detected nothing wrong. Severus, we will give you twenty-four hours to think about it. Minerva is going to observe the muggle family Harry has. Please do think about it.” Dumbeldore implored to him. Severus gave a slight nod. “Have a good day Severus, Remus.” Dumbeldore and Minerva apperated out of the Manor.
Severus clutched Harry to himself and started to cry. “I can’t keep him… I love him too much…”
Also, it's a HP/DM as well as a SS/RL enjoy!
Chapter One: “I Can’t Keep Him.”
Severus Snape held the tiny child Harry in his arms. Harry was only a few weeks old but he was Sev’s child. Lily had owled him barely two months ago informing him that she was nearing the end of her pregnancy. Severus had not even known that she had been pregnant before the Potter wedding. Lily and Severus had been a couple and they had indeed conceived the child but Lily Evans was in love with two men. It was better for all three if she gave up Severus Snape for James Potter.
Severus stood in one of many studies in the Snape Manor. Albus Dumbeldore stood with him.
“Severus do be serious, you cannot possibly care for the child while Voldermort lives.”
“Yes Albus, I know but he is so perfect and he is mine why should he not be safe with me?”
“I don’t need to answer that. However, I will answer in one word: Malfoy.” Severus had not wanted to hear it, but it was true. Lucius was a problem. “How are you faring Severus?”
“I’m doing well… Malfoy is determined to find my breaking point so that I will join him in becoming a death-eater, so not much different but I suppose he is getting closer. He is getting more information then he should be getting, and I am getting more and more uncomfortable around him.”
“I see, well I must be off we do not want my presence detected her… please come straight to Hogwarts if you need me.”
“I will.” Severus said before Dumbeldore apperated out of Snape Manor with a loud BANG! The noise disturbed Harry who shifted his small body in Severus’s arms.
~~***~~ One Year Later ~~***~~
“ALBUS!!!” Severus screamed going straight to the headmaster’s office. The gargoyle let him without a password on Dumbeldore’s request.
“What is it Severus?” The words didn’t seem to be fully comprehended Severus was shaking and his thoughts were on one thing…
“They’re dead…. James and Lily…I feel it, it burns me… they are hurting, they have died. Harry! What about Harry!!!” Severus was about to fly out of the room when he was frozen in fright. His eyes glazed over his trembling increased and he felt tears threatening to spill down his pale cheeks. “Harry…” he whimpered falling into one of the chairs in front of Albus’s desk.
“Severus I am afraid I must leave you here for a short while… do try to remain calm…” Severus shook in fear. Albus exited the room quickly and quietly. Severus shook and could only think about his son and his former love. Lily had been everything to Severus at one point at time and he still loved her even if he was still young and foolish. Severus had known nothing about the attack on the Potter home. He was now lost… he had made a bond with each of his lovers and he knew Lily and James were both dead. But he didn’t have that bond with Harry… he didn’t have a link to the one person in his life who he was most connected to… Lily had left him, James had left him, now they were both taken away forever. Severus started weeping he hated Lucius and The Dark Lord now more then ever.
“Sev?” It was the voice of Remus Lupin his friend who was under pressure to become a death-eater from Lucius because he was a pureblood and a Werewolf.
“Remus there is pain… my son I don’t know if my son is de…” Severus cut himself off before he could finish the word.
“Sev ohh Sev…” Remus crossed the room quickly to wrap his friend in a warm embrace. “It’s okay Sev, you can cry if you need to.”
“Stay with me… I need you tonight…”
“Alright Sev… I will stay.” He said with some reluctance.
“Let’s go now… I can’t stay in here there are too many voices…” Severus was referring to the portraits who were listening to the two men… several were talking about the fact that the Dark Lord had killed again.
The two nineteen year olds left the office of their beloved headmaster. Severus and Remus apperated to Snape Manor where they shared with each other what they needed in order to feel alive in this time. After they cried together holding onto the memory of their mutual friends. In the morning Severus awoke when the manor shields flexed with the arrival of Albus and Minerva. Severus dressed quickly and headed down to great his guest. They were patiently waiting at the front door. Both covered in bright green cloaks head to toe Minerva carried a small blanked wrapped child.
“Harry?” Severus choked out to them.
“Yes Severus… he lived…however you wear right about Lily and James. I am truly sorry.” Albus replied to the young man.
“Come in, please?” Sev said to his Headmaster and Professor. Minerva handed Severus the small bundle when he asked for Harry and Severus couldn’t let go.
“How did he get this scratch?” Severus looked up at his two elders.
“I think that when he killed Lord Voldermort that he received that scar.” Albus said a twinkle in his eye.
“He’s dead? You are sure that he’s dead?”
“Yes we are quiet sure.” Minerva said.
“Severus there is one thing…” Albus said quietly. Severus looked up at him eyes filled with tears of happiness. “Severus… you are still a Death-Eater, and Harry has an Aunt in the muggle world with a small child herself. There are going to be trials now with you being a newly joined Death-Eater I think it would be best if they found you but not with Harry… there are Death-Eaters who will not be controlled by the Ministry one’s they can’t convict, like you, but if they find you with Harry one of two things could happen. One: They will think you kidnapped him to prove your post-defeat loyalty to Voldermort. Or two: You will have to come out as Harry’s father and be shunned by the Death-Eaters as a traitor for not submitting Harry to the Dark Lord to be trained as a future servant or Voldermort and thus endangering Harry’s life in the process. I would suggest that you find Lucius and make plans for the revival of Voldermort because he will be back and we need you now more than ever as a spy.” Severus had a complete mood change when he heard this… how could this be how could the Dark Lord be gone but coming back…
“What’s going on in here?” Remus was awake finally.
“Ahh Mr. Lupin we have retrieved Harry… he is very much alive and healthy. Minerva and I have detected nothing wrong. Severus, we will give you twenty-four hours to think about it. Minerva is going to observe the muggle family Harry has. Please do think about it.” Dumbeldore implored to him. Severus gave a slight nod. “Have a good day Severus, Remus.” Dumbeldore and Minerva apperated out of the Manor.
Severus clutched Harry to himself and started to cry. “I can’t keep him… I love him too much…”